Hobbies:reading, books, music, film, animals, sport, long walks, smiling, yawning Penpal message / wishes: Would like to read someones casual,extraordinary, boring, interesting, pink and black daily thoughts. Sometimes it`s not that easy to find a person for a pleasant, intelligent, liberal, respecting conversation that covers a wide range of topics.. from a pie recipe to astronomy. It doesn`t matter if you like tea or coffee (I prefer tea), we can try and arrange that type of virtual conversation.
I also like Milky Way (both galaxy and chocolate). It`s kind of cosy.
Hobbies:Cars, Drifting, Movies, Arts, Life mysteries. Penpal message / wishes: GIRLS ONLY!
Now, please don't go and be all judgemental for what I'm about to say, but I feel it needs to be said and this should not be a bad thing... I think that's what my therapist would advise me, but I could be wrong.
I'm looking for any kind of intimacy because that's something all humans need and that's something I don't have in my life... at least not yet, but it's been so long it's actually affecting me, physically and mentally.
I know going here online is not the right way to go about it but... oh well ?
There is a lot to be said about me, my life, like I'm 23 for god sake and never even kissed a girl... spinning the bottle is just not it. It's not because I'm fat or stupid or ugly, I'm okay with my looks really... but I guess I'm just too shy, a scaredy cat.
Sorry if I'm coming out as someone desperate or seem like a victim, I am not, and I'm not sure what I want but maybe there is someone who feels the same.
Have you ever walked down the street and saw a couple holding hands or just walking together and felt this invincible pain... you don't know where it comes from but you feel it and can't do much about it. Or simply saw an attractive person who is single and would probably love to talk to you and the pain is even worse because the road is clear, you're probably good to go but you just can't seem to. Well that's me...
So if you feel the same, we have something in common already.
Penpal message / wishes: If love is the only thing that we can all find peace in, then why can’t it be permanent? Why do we want to run away from love? Why do we want to create obstacles for only thing that gives us fulfillment when nothing else does? I know it effects all of us, no matter how rotten someone is, to the core, to the deepest corners of the soul. Love can get there no matter what. And when you don’t have love nothing else seems to matter. You might want to ignore that and pretend that you’re fine by yourself, without anyone else but you know that not to be true. Connecting to total stranger brings you totally out of your comfort zone yet it’s something that you desire the most. Giving up control and letting yourself go into unknown horizons. Sometimes no one really wants to share this feeling with you and then you just feel empty without any purpose. Your mind tells you that it’s nothing to be surprised of, after all, why would a stranger want to be a part of your life and give a part of his life to you? It’s not that you’re doing something wrong. You just haven’t met the right person yet. It this modern age where everything feels so disconnected from reality, having a real connection with someone is something to be desired. Even if your friends and family feel so far away from you, both physically and spiritually, an idea of having a total stranger close to you is something that actually gives you hope for once. Of course, sometimes it doesn’t work out. Then you’re left with a biggest wound that anyone can possibly get – memories of something that will never happen again, but it only hurts so much because there’s a person in those memories, a person that was close to you yet now is so far away. That person likely moved on and cursed you with all possible words. Thinking about this makes the pain simply unbearable, yet there’s nothing you can do besides waiting for memories to sink into your head and became endless like time. If they just get stuck into your mind, eventually you will move on, occasionally coming back to those moments. Sometimes you even let yourself to think that not everything is lost, and that person will come back to you, but you know it will not happen. The constant lies that you tell yourself is the only thing that keeps you somehow going in the pointless existence and fills in the void in your soul. Eventually you just totally lose yourself and stop caring about anything that’s going on with the world and especially with your life. Oh, there’s so much you will give away to be able to relive one of those memories, even for a few seconds but it all comes down to the question: are you really so empty that only presence of someone else in your life can give you a purpose?
Hobbies:listening to music, studying, reading books, watching videos, thinking about things Penpal message / wishes: Looking for penpals to communicate with from around the world. I am a student, studying English and Italian translation, from Lithuania which is in Europe. Don't really like introductions, but I like history, languages and like to discuss about things.
From Lithuania, Europe.